OK. I owe you guys an explanation. Today I got a call from a very good friend. She was curious about my latest Facebook entries. “Are you in love , Eric?”, she said, and I could almost hear her think “..or did you leave your wife and are you fucking 75 virgins per week!?” She had noticed a change in my writings: “You are always very passionate, but WOW, now you seem to explode!“.
And I had to laugh.
So I think it is time to go down Confession Boulevard in full public. You guys deserve the truth from a man like me. I always preach honesty and integrity, and great men practice what they preach.
And I am a great man.
So here we go.
Yes it’s true. I am very much in love. Head over heels. Never been like that before. It is heaven!
Although I always knew she was there, I have only really met her two weeks ago. She came without a warning and with full force. She is there in my dreams at night and all over me when I wake up in the morning. She loves me every second of the day and caresses me with her attention. She is right there beside me when I go to sleep, singing her whispering, sensual voice until my dreams set in. And then she floats with me on another journey through endless streams of love, passion and loving-kindness. She is the love of my life and in every pore of my body. I see her face every moment of the day and every eon in time. It is a true revelation and totally stunning.
I am walking on sunshine, drifting the seas, sailing the universes. All boundaries that were, have ceased to exist. No categories left. No dualism. Just oneness. She is me and I am her. We are the same. We have melted into one radiant existence.
We are love.
Sometimes I look at her and wonder: “Am I really looking at her or is it me? Is she really there, am I really here or is it just one big illusion?” And it is then I realize it is just an illusion. We were always one. We were always together. She was always me and I was always her. We were always one, I just didn’t see it! What a time wasted!
And then I look at her and wonder “Does she see, hear and feel the same as I do? Does she know we are in love? Does she know we are love? Is she there?” And I realize it really doesn’t matter. It is just perfect as it is. It has transformed all expectations and transcended all form.
It just is.
Her name is simple and unbelievably beautiful. It rings like a siren in the night and caresses all my senses. It is magical and mysterious. Dark and light. Of another world and real.
Her name is…..LIFE.
I found her lying awake in full existence during my two week NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) training in London by three human giants called Michael Carroll, John Grinder and Carmen Bostic St Clair. It opened my senses and heart to the max. And since then I am walking the clouds with a radical and serene sense of oneness, love and beauty.
This is the enlightenment I always knew existed but could never find.
Because I was looking.
Stop looking and you will see.
God bless you!
Eric Bartels
